Jalepeno Cheese Grits

Ok, I've really been letting it go. My kitchen and the state of my apartment is one horrific, crime-scene-looking, tornado-hit-it-aftermath mess.

I think I'm finally 'mentally' prepared to tackle the mass-chaotic state of my abode. Of course, I've also called in for outside help. This mess has become bigger than me. :)

That's always the hardest part. To get myself prepared to face it. That's right!! I called an intervention on myself. What's a girl to do? I finally reached a point of embarrassment. I'm sure I could've survived a few more days, maybe even a week or two but the stench may have alerted the neighbors. Ok, so not quite that bad. But that's just not good quality of life. The thought of coming back to relax at my apartment was starting to feel not-so-relaxing anymore.

So, my lovely is on his way. I asked him to please help me. He obliged. He's coming with his pepper mill. I asked him to cook me some jalapeno cheese grits too. What a sweetie!!

November

So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
Oh,
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks that you're not here
And i think I'll want to be alone
So please understand if I dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know
Ohh..
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
Doo doo doo(x9)

Keep Calm & Carry On

I have a mantra for certain times. Times when my mind is in turmoil. Conflict. Brewing a storm and a riot is waiting to surface. A deep breath and calmness is the most soothing. It breaks the currents and subdues the deluge.

Thanksgiving

It's not my favorite holiday. It's a pathetic excuse for a holiday. I only really enjoy the day because it's a national day off and so I get to spend time with my loved ones and bake green bean casserole.

It's a holiday that is just there. Mostly it is obnoxious. To deal with turkey corpses and all the fuss about this crappy holiday. I don't even like the premise of this day. Why kill all these turkey's so we can celebrate being thankful for having food and complain about stuffing ourselves after over-indulging??! Seems barbaric and pathetic. Taking a turkey's life so humans can enjoy feasting over them in the name of giving thanks.

The holiday just seems like a lost cause on me.
Have we come that far that we need a national holiday to remind us that we should spend more time with family and being thankful for the daily bread? And why be forced to spend time with obnoxious family members that you would not give a hoot about otherwise?

The Native Americans probably were not the least bit thankful that their land got swiped from underneath them by some greedy Europeans that traded it for junk and diseases. The Natives were better off before Thanksgiving and so would we.

Simply Dogwood

Colorful dogwood leaves in the fall. Simply simple and magnificent.

Late Night Impulse Buy

I was supposed to be reading a very boring textbook. My bad. I couldn't concentrate. And then I couldn't help finding myself on FB when a photo of this little hot item came up on Live Feed.
Sure, I had never heard of this product in my life. Who knew there had been such a technological breakthrough in hair removal while I had been stuck in the dark ages with my Shick Quattro razors, hot waxes and gooey unknown substances!? I did my research extensively in the minutes before I hit 'one-click' and purchased away. And now this innovative number, which is a major step in advancement for human civilization, will be delivered to my doorstep in 48 hours or more.

Dear Amazon,

You have made it entirely too easy. No transgressing back to a former life to try and remember my secret password. You've made purchasing easy enough for a half-witted baboon with that one-click. It all happens so fast. No chance to even blink or think it over additional clicks.

And why did you allow me to set a password that I have no problems committing to memory? And safely store my credit card information in your data bank, easily activated with the typing of my secret word? A word which you and I know is not really that secret. An actual English word! No codes or string of gibberish that no one bothers writing down.

You must've figured out that rote memorization was never my strong suite growing up. Yes, I will admit. Those nonsensical words evaporate faster from my brain than white lines of happy dust from front of a feigning addict.

Lots of love,
Your Biggest Fan

Jokes aside, the product makes sense and customers seem to be pleased with it. 866 customers can't be wrong, averaging the rating at 4.5 out of 5 stars. Promises of smooth, hair-free skin for up to 4 weeks! Well, duh. How else do you get an ordinary girl to feel like she's fit for a tea party with Her Behindness of The Royal Family? How was I to resist?

The process is not pain-free though. That was never a concern for me. Removing unwanted hairs from the root is far too rewarding of a process to be worrying about pain. I'm definitely not a wuss when it comes to enduring pain for vanity's sake. But just for all you curious folks, I'll report back with an actual testimony once I get my hands on this.

Empire State of Mind

This tune has me in a New York state of mind!
Yea...Jay Z is such a Balla.